I Have Issues…

I chew my fingernails.

I hog the bed.

You don’t want to know when my driver’s license expired.

I drink way too much coffee.

I gave up sugar for a full year, and then gave up giving up sugar.

I lock up when I’m in a crowd of people.

Talking on the phone is really, really hard for me. Seriously. If you call me, and I actually answer, it’s a small miracle, and you should probably go buy a lottery ticket.

Issues, people. I have issues.

Right now, the issue that is staring me in the face, that is keeping me up at night, that is following me around like a shadow, is this one:

thisdoesnotbodewell

I did not set an unrealistic deadline for myself. I just flat-out couldn’t make the words come in time. So they stacked up, and stacked up and stacked up and now…well, you can see for yourself. I’m a turtle writer, not a jackrabbit, and there’s NO WAY I could ever, in my wildest dreams, finish this book on time. Now I’m looking at the necessity of having to push this deadline – and the release – of this book back. Ack-ack-ack-ack-ack. Cue Billy Joel song:

I’ve given myself an extra month. That puts my daily word count at a do-able level, which immediately takes my stress level down a notch. Now if I can kick this feeling of failure to the curb and justΒ get on with it, I’ll be in business.

Thanks for hanging in my corner, and cheering me on…even in the failures. Big ol’ fatty hugs for all of you.

Myndi

 

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33 thoughts on “I Have Issues…

  1. Kassandra Lamb says:

    Thought #1: Goals are good, but one of the joys of being self-published is that we don’t have to accept the crap our brains produce when the muse is not in the mood, just because we have a deadline.

    Thought #2: You have more on your plate than any five people I know combined. I’m amazed that you can find the time and mental energy to write at all!

    Ease up on yourself there, babe! {{{HUGS}}}
    Kass

  2. Angela Brown says:

    I can totally understand where you’re coming from. But you’ll get’er done. I hope you don’t have to do what I did and push the deadline out two months.

  3. Elena Aitken says:

    Oh buddy, it happens! Just keep on going and it will get done. The fact that you’re even setting deadlines is awesome! Keep it up!

  4. Kristy K. James...Where Romance and Fantasy Collide says:

    Given that you’re raising young kids, I think you’re doing fabulous, Myndi.

    I hate deadlines. Especially the self-imposed ones that I announce to the world…and then miss. I have you beat on missing them though. The fourth book in my series was due out in July. Then August. Then September. Now I’m pushing for late October. Between a stubborn and completely mute muse and getting some thyroid issues under control, it just wasn’t happening. In fact, it’s barely happening now.

    I’m back to telling myself I’ll never set a public deadline again. But I will. And I’ll probably miss 90% of them. But that’s okay. The writing will get done faster than if I’d not had a plan…and in the end, that’s why we set them. So I hereby set the goal for my next book for December 1st…2035. Okay, that was a joke, Muse. A joke. πŸ™‚

  5. Gloria Richard Author says:

    Hey, Kristy! My next goal is mid December, too. I may begin stalking you to see how you’re doing.

    Myndi! Be kind to yourself. You failed to meet THAT deadline, that doesn’t make you a failure. Good grief! My progress is slow, and I have no cutie-patooties running about wanting to be fed, dressed, bathed, taught, and bathed. You’re a rock star!

    You’ll get it done.

  6. Anonymous says:

    I am sending you positive energy….grab it and keep it in progressive motion πŸ™‚ Hey, sometimes making progress is defined by taking steps backwards. Keep up the good work! I’m cheering for you!

  7. Marcy Kennedy says:

    Don’t be too hard on yourself. I’m there right now as well. Work deadlines and life prevented me from getting as far ahead on my book as I wanted. It’s written but the edits are coming so slowly I want to cry. But I’ll get there and so will you, and in the long run, it won’t matter if we were a little slower about it πŸ™‚

    • Fantasy For the Rest of Us. says:

      Aw, hang in there Marcy! It’s so tough when life – the parts that we have no control over – get in the way. It’s like griping about the weather – you can’t do a dang thing to change it, but sometimes it makes progress and/or coping pretty tough. I’m in your corner, though, girl, if you are ever in need of a cheerleader. ❀

  8. Anonymous says:

    Try to acknowledge all you DID accomplish. I know it’s a lot because we ‘see’ you on FB, Missy!! Now see if you can find the areas where you are spinning your wheels, doing a lot, feeling stressed, and not getting much done. Can you eliminate that from your life, or change it to be more productive. Honor your writing self and your word count daily … Like it’s a healthy you need to keep going.

    **see ginger copying this advice and emailing to herself.**

    Together??? Don’t make me call you. πŸ˜‰

  9. Ginger Calem says:

    Try to acknowledge all you DID accomplish. I know it’s a lot because we ‘see’ you on FB, Missy!! Now see if you can find the areas where you are spinning your wheels, doing a lot, feeling stressed, and not getting much done. Can you eliminate that from your life, or change it to be more productive. Honor your writing self and your word count daily … Like it’s a healthy you need to keep going.

    **see ginger copying this advice and emailing to herself.**

    Together??? Don’t make me call you. πŸ˜‰

  10. Julie Glover says:

    Hang in there! I know those moments are so frustrating. I’ve missed deadlines too, and I tend to throw a short pity party before regrouping and marching on. Hope those words come to you! Best wishes, Myndi, for your release…whenever it comes.

    • Fantasy For the Rest of Us. says:

      Thanks Julie. I think those mini-pity parties can be cathartic. Like a tiny little funeral where you can acknowledge all those yucky feelings, and then leave them behind when it’s all over. I know I’m feeling much better after having vented a little, and now that I’ve regrouped and am facing a feasible task, I’m much more optimistic. πŸ™‚

      • Kassandra Lamb says:

        I love the way you put this (You must be a writer! teehee) The pity parties are basically acknowledging the feelings so you can let them go. Definitely psychologically valid, my dear!!

  11. Karen McFarland says:

    How brave of you Myndi to put your feelings out there. Really girl, I am in awe. This is the reason why I decided to name the theme of my blog, “Life Happens.” Cuz it does. You cannot beat yourself up about this. Let’s be thankful girl at what you have already accomplished. Wow, your a great Mom and wife. You’re writing fantastic books with one on the way. There’s only twenty-four hours in a day Myndi and we can’t change that for nothing. So don’t take the joy out of what you’re doing! Enjoy every moment with those babies and your characters. It will happen when it happens and the story will be all the better for it. Smile, you’re doing great! πŸ™‚

  12. No Reimer Reason says:

    I am with you on the phone thing. I don’t know why, but it intimidates me. Which is opposite of how I was in high school and practically was tied to the darn thing.

    And though I don’t drink coffee, I drink WAY too much Diet Coke.

    Don’t beat yourself up about your deadline. Though we are all very anxious to read your next book, we also know that you have FOUR children and I know how busy days can be with littles running around and into everything. πŸ™‚

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